This past week I’ve been struggling a lot. I’ve been struggling with balance,
The biggest cause of snapping at my kids is distraction (intermingled with that lack of rest and self-care). I’m working on something important to me and fail to recognize something important to them. This leads to a constant flow of, “Mama. Mama. Mama. Mama! Mama!” Screaming and tears and me feeling like, “WHAT??” And Momzilla comes out, i
That time that I snapped over a picture book.
Just tonight as we were reading stories before bed. We were all cozy and peaceful with our lamp on. They had chosen a glow in the dark Dora the Explorer Christmas book. The littlest just wanted the lights off to look at the glowing pages, so we did that for a bit. Then older wanted to read the pages and turn the lights off in between each page so we could see the glowing. Read and see. Read and see. Read and see.
Then when it was at those read times and I had to flick the light on, the littlest would scream and cry and try and pull the lamp off the table while older is yelling at me to keep reading. Then little just falls on the whole book crying and I regretfully say, “just stop it!” And I drop my head into my hands. And both kids cry. Oldest cries saying, “I’ll give you a hug mom. It’s ok for baby to cry because it will make her feel better.” I mumble, “I know. I’m just having a hard time.” And he holds me (like the parent he is not. And the incredibly empathetic little boy that he is). And I try to calm down. I handled it poorly. I was grouchy. I was tired. I snapped right when I should be sending them off to dreamland feeling secure and loved.
The Good News!
Sometimes parenting is just completely and utterly overwhelming. It feels like there is no moment between the rope being nice and loose and the rope snapping. It feels like there is no warning, j
The good news is that there is a moment
Between stimulus and response there is a space. In that space is our power to choose our response. In our response lies our growth and our freedom.
Viktor E. Frankl
Expectations can be brutal. I can envision us all laying in our giant bed wearing matching jammies, freshly washed hair, smiling faces with dimples, cuddles and “I love you”s and “you’re the best
sometimes most of the time we can’t. Sometimes they have dreads forming in the hair that hasn’t been washed in 3 weeks, they scream and run away when it is teeth brushing time, and one sat on the other one’s hair and made him cry, and they decided they wanted to switch pajamas even though they wouldn’t fit the other, and you are mad at yourself for getting a stupid glow in the dark book in the first place.
This list could go on and on. Unmet expectations. Reaction. Frustrated moment. Reaction. Reaction. Reaction.
It’s difficult to shift away and learn tools to stop living from one reaction to the next. Our kids deserve patience and love and kindness. And WE deserve to give ourselves patience love and kindness. And tools.
How do you snap out of snapping at your kids?
I can’t endorse meditation enough. It isn’t some mystical woo experience for hippies (at least, it’s not only this). It is for CEOs, parents, tattoo artists, motorcycle club members, teachers, presidents, and so on. It is for everyone. Meditation is simple in its most basic form. You focus on your breath/mantra/object. You breathe. You are still.
A great App to try that offers guided meditation is called Headspace. Even just 10 minutes a day of this can create changes. And it gets easier and easier to become fully present without having to fight against thoughts constantly. Meditation changes your brain. Studies have proven how awesome meditation is for everyone. By meditating, you are setting yourself up for a calmer life. You will still get irritable and have those reactions start to bubble up, but with practice in meditation, you will be able to recognize that you are getting worked up and have the capacity to make a choice in how you will respond.
Expectations are killer. If you expect your 3-year-old to be able to play independently for 30 minutes while you get work done, then you most likely will experience disappointed expectations. You are setting yourself for frustration. If you expect your partner to come home from work, clean the house, switch the laundry over to the dryer, all without telling this person that you want this done, you most likely will experience disappointed expectations.
Starting off each day, each moment even, with realistic expectations will save you a huge amount of frustration. Even when we clearly communicate expectations, it doesn’t always guarantee they will be met. Expect the unexpected. Go with the flow. The best part about meditation is that it allows you to become more flexible.
Communication with yourself is essential. Constantly assess your emotional temperature. How am I feeling right now? Am I happy, patient, sad, frustrated? Label the feeling so that it has the opportunity to dissipate rather than fester. You’re driving down the road and get cut off, you can say out loud or in your head, “That makes me really frustrated. I wish people were more respectful.” Rather than tailing them while flashing your lights or fingers at them. Communicating with those around you in a healthy way is also important. “Mama is feeling anxious right now. I need to take a break.”
You can’t expect to know how to do something perfectly that you’ve never done before (unless, of course, you have unrealistic expectations of yourself!). Allow yourself room to grow and practice. We all fall off the wagon at times. We all have an opportunity to make it right again, and to own up to our mistakes to the person that we wronged. Even our children.
To a child: “I was having a really hard time earlier. I felt really overwhelmed and I yelled at you guys. You didn’t deserve to be treated that way. I’m sorry. I’m working on it, and will always try to do better.” When you are trying to do better, it’s important to actively practice acquiring or nurturing new skills. You can’t change and grow if you don’t put in the work. A seed in its packet will just remain a seed in its packet. A seed laid down on concrete will also, most likely, remain just a seed on concrete. You can’t expect it to grow and blossom if you don’t provide it with some tools and care.
There aren’t many get rich quick schemes when it comes to growth. We have to put in the work, be open to change, offer ourselves a lot of patience, love, and forgiveness, and keep on trying.
Meditation is probably the closest you will come to seeing quick results. Meditation reduces anxiety, boosts happiness, along with many other positive changes. It is also beneficial to acknowledge your triggers; is it hitting, whining, crying, messes, etc? Once you recognize your triggers you can become more aware during those instances that you might become reactive. Acknowledging this before it happens puts you one step ahead of that reaction and will allow you to stop and “detach” yourself from that reaction, like pulling Velcro apart. It helps to remember that the trigger isn’t an emergency (that fight or flight response makes it feel like it), it is just a behavior.
Separate yourself from all of it and find your center; your calm space. A lot of times our triggers are the result of our own childhood unmet needs. Were you yelled at for crying? Were you punished for hitting? Did your parents flip their lid when you made a mess even if you were just playing? Finding the source of the trigger helps you to realize why you react the way you do; usually, a fight or flight response was developed in your own childhood.
So there you have it. How to snap out of snapping at your kids? Meditate, assess expectations, communicate with yourself and others (take your emotional temperature frequently!), and practice. You can do it. You don’t have to be perfect. You just have to be you; authentic, open, empathetic, and kind.